Not having said a single word for a few hours and you already going delirium is actually kind of insane ngl.
First things first: I have absolutely no reason to have a "personal hate" against you as you claim.Of course this is a common mistake amongst other players as well.Just because I gag/ban/warn someone as an admin it doesn't mean I have something personal against them,or that I hate them,I am just trying to do my part as an admin.Also,obviously you don't know how admin duty works so I will try to explain it simply to you: A player can have 15 total gags for not speaking english let's say for example.That doesn't mean that the player that has heavily harassed and insulted players 3 times will have a lower communication block length. Given the seriousness of the chat situation,gag lengths differ. In other words: The worse things you say,the faster your gag length reaches to permanent.
Second of all: You start by saying that your punishment is well deserved and you knew that it was going to happen,yet in the message right after (literally 30 minutes after) I am the arrogant and super egoistic admin that made a wrong decision? Oh,also a "piece of shit person".Interesting choice of words for someone who wants his punishment lifted.What's up with that?
Your first statement contradicts the second and vice versa. You can't have both of these statements together and make sense.
Third: I want to make this as super clear as possible. This is NOT your first time doing that. You have been gagged before for doing the same thing and on multiple accounts as well,which is way worse for your case. You obviously knew what you were doing this time as well and judging by what you've written...there's not a single remorse for your words? Hell,not even towards me,I am not in need of any apology,what about towards the player that kindly asked you to stop making these comments and you just kept going? You yourself stated you are 31 years old...come on man.. We all play on the server to have fun with each other and forget about life problems,not break out our frustration into it.
On a closing note: Looking at your gag history,seems like you have had your chances and false promises of not behaving like this again and yet here we are.Easy has talked to you during your past bans and I am pretty sure he explained to you how things like these are not tolerated in the server.And by reading your insults above,I doubt that change will be seen.
The least I can do for you is follow normal gag length (Your previous one was 3 months,so,I can reduce the current one to 6 months) and I sincerely hope you take this time to account for your words and actions.This is not an ok thing to happen in a video game.
Also,while you are at it,take into consideration that all of this could have easily been avoided if you had just...stopped after Carla,me,or Dhoudz told you to do so. You brought this upon yourself.